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Nobody's perfect and yet at the same time, everyone's perfect. What exactly is perfect? Is that girl on the front of your
favorite magazine your idea of perfect? Or is it the movie star in the latest hit movie? Who set the standards of the perfect
person? There really are no standards so everyone has their own idea. But for almost every person in this world, when they
look in the mirror they find at least one flaw which really sticks out to them. The thing is, the rest of the world probably
wouldn't even notice unless you had told them. Like the one day I was completely rushed and falling apart and I had done my
eyeliner but only gotten around to putting eye shadow on one eye. I wear very pale pink eye shadow and when I told my friends
(while I was totally freaking out) they started laughing and were like: We'll give you this advice, if you don't tell anyone
else no one would notice because you can't see it unless you point it out! So really, you make the person that you are. It's
like that saying "You are what you eat." If you make yourself out to be something horrible, than so will other people.
Everyone is perfect in their own way because their are no two people exactly alike in this world. No one looks in the mirror
and thinks "I'm perfect." The people that act that way are often just as self-conscious as the rest of us and just
feel the need to do that to make themselves feel better (I found this out the hard way). I go into the different forums on
here, and there are so many people saying "I'm too fat," Or "I'm too tall." And what upsets me most is
when people ask if this will hold them back from dancing. You are the only one that can possibly hold YOU back from doing
anything. What you do in your life is what you choose to do. There are people who feel like they could die because they feel
so ugly, or so fat, or whatever and they get out of bed and do what they need to do. They are confident and happy and people
like them. The people who feel the need to put them down, are really the ones who have few friends, and often times the friends
they have our scared of rejection. When I was younger I was in the popular group. Everyday I got out of bed and made sure
I was perfect and completely in style so that I wouldn't be rejected. I stood in front of the mirror and absolutely hated
myself. This is because everyday would be another day to discuss the best clothes, or the best color of makeup for the week.
I never had much money and was spending it all on different shades of lipstick to match each outfit I bought or the best smelling
perfume, etc. etc. My dance shoes were literally falling apart and I didn't have the money to buy a new pair and my mom was
punishing me for getting involved in all of this. All my old friends wouldn't talk to me anymore and my new friends were never
really there. None of them seemed to have the problems I did. They all seemed to have the best boyfriends, the best clothes,
the name-brand makeup, and the biggest houses. I live in a small house right outside the city where we are surrounded by farmland
and right outside of all that is the industrial part of the city. The rest of my group lived on the other side of town, so
I never had anyone over and devoted my time to dancing and shopping. I got in major debt, asking for money from other friends
and obviously from my parents. And it was for stupid things, like a pair of $40 sandals that I wore once, or the new best
CD of the week that I might have listened to twice. I was only in 6th grade but all this had an impact on me and that's when
I really started falling apart with eating disorders (my story was previously posted in Health & Nutrition). I thought
I wasn't pretty enough because the boy I was after never took a second look at me. Really it's because I didn't have the self
confidence. Self confidence has a large impact on what people think of you. If you don't have any they won't think much of
you because you don't think much of yourself. If you have too much, they'll think you're a snob and they won't think much
of you then either. Really, it's like finding the balance between too much and too little. But you are never too anything
to do something. You are perfect just the way you are, being yourself. Not changing yourself for other people. It took a lot
for me to realize that and show I'm sharing this with you all now.
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